You can speed it up. You can slow it down. You can even freeze a moment, but you can't rewind time. You can't undo what is done.I just wanted you to know there will be a piece of you in me always, and I'm grateful for that. Whatever someone you become, and wherever you are in the world, I'm sending you love. You're my friend to the end. Love, Theodore.I don't think we should sleep together. I mean, I want to, but since we're never gonna see each other again, it will make me feel bad. I'll wonder who else you're with. I'll miss you.It's crazy. When I first reached out to you, I... I didn't have anyone to talk to. And now I have all of these people, because everyone important in my life knows that I'm gay. You have been so amazing to me. But I think that... I'm ready to figure out this next chapter of my life without you.Victor... I need you to hear this. Your happiness is my happiness. If your heart is broken, so is mine. And I know you said that Papi is the love of my life. That's only sort of true. You kids are the love of my life. There is nothing in this world that is more precious to me. But, my, my parents were set up by their parents. And they only met twice before their wedding. In their eyes, marriage is between a man and a woman who come from a good Iranian, Muslim family. So, I know it's gonna be hard for them, when I do come out, but... I'm willing to stick it out. I have to.Really. I was just really embarrassed that you found out about AA. I wanted to keep that part of my life separate from you, because I hate that part of my life, and you're the part of my life that I love.But, if they do take it badly, just know that they love you so much. And part of the reason they might struggle is because they thought they knew everything about you. And then all of a sudden, they didn't. So even if they say the wrong things, I hope you don't give up on them.Please, tell me what's the exact level of gay I should be. What is a perfect level of gay that will keep everyone happy? Because apparently, I'm too gay for the locker room, but I'm not gay enough for Benji and his friends. So, where do I belong?Sex is scary for everyone the first time. I think the key is accepting that some moments will forever live on in the sexual blooper reel of our lives. If you're with the right person, doesn't matter. Well, that's how it was for me, anyway.Because, I mean, coming out is, is the most important thing you've ever done, and... I am glad you did it. Because I want you to be happy. Because I love you. But, um, I just wish that you doing the most important thing you've ever done didn't make me feel like shit.The truth is... I'm gay, and I'm with Benji now. I-I don't want it to be a secret anymore, because I'm happy about it. Like... Like really, really happy. 
