I'm really sorry I threw you under the bus and then let you take the fall for me. It was wrong and really messed up.I just wanted to spend every second I could with you. And every stupid pun and mural and drawing brought us together. So I couldn't stop 'cause I was falling for you too.
but now I realize that being brave means that you aren't afraid... to be scared. It means that you embrace the scary because a lot of the times, the scariest things are also the most important. Like... admitting who you are, or who you love.Victor, when I came out of the restaurant today, and I saw those guys messing with you, I just wanted to protect you. I guess scary shit finds a way of making you realize what's important to you. Yeah. It does.Hey, isn't that the sound your gay dating app makes? Liam is in the closet. That explains why he's so uptight and pushes everyone away. Oh, he's not a dick. He just wants dick.And then, he-he sees you dancing with another boy at the wedding, and he-he drives straight home to raid my liquor cabinet. I know you don't mean to, but
whenever you're around, you... you create chaos. You're not good for him, Victor. And if you really cared about Benji, you'd stay away.Um... I want... something more than "you up" texts. I want... someone who answers my calls. And I, I know you've been super clear about keeping this casual, which is totally cool... for you. It's just, um... it's not really working for me.You're acting like my dad. He's so overprotective, and scared of anyone
ever trying to hurt me that he doesn't let me live my life. And now, I'm forced to hide the best thing that's happened to me in, probably, forever from him and it... it feels terrible.Yeah... Yeah, that's fair, um, I was... a coward, and you deserve closure. Lake, Lake, you will always be my first love, and even though I don't think we're meant to be together, I'm glad we happened. I don't know why I didn't say it sooner. I guess it just made me really sad. No, no, I want to. Um... I think I just got scared. Not because I didn't want it to happen, but... because I did.
My mom told me something once when she first started dating again. You lose your secrets when you let people get too close. It can be painful, to let someone find you in all the dark and twisty places inside. But you have to hope they do, because that's the beginning of everything. Make mistakes, but don't regret them. Learn from them. Because regrets are the hardest things to carry when you get older.You have no idea what it's like to hear people laugh at your family. You're right. I don't. And have to protect them, 'cause they can't hear it, but I can. 
