If you asked me a few months ago what life would be like without my hearing, I wouldn't have been able to answer because I was too afraid of losing such a huge part of me. But now, I see that life without sound is still beautiful. It's just a different kind of beautiful.But you know, just because It doesn't necessarily mean that someone's being dramatic because they're emotional. You know, for a lot of people, they need to fully experience their emotions, in order to process what they've been through, so that they can begin to heal.I will never be good enough for you, will I? No matter how hard I try... no matter how hard any of us try. Luisa will never be strong enough. Isabela won't be perfect enough. Bruno left our family because you only saw the worst in him.Dear Lily, I'm not the guy in your head, and you're not the girl in mine. But that doesn't make us strangers. Honestly, I think I know you better than most people in real life. I know you're smart and brave, because you take risks to get what you want. Or... I was spending too much of my life hiding behind a computer screen. And the universe was trying to tell me it was time to look up.The most strongest, the most powerful, the most dangerous creature on this whole earth is a woman who knows how to think. Ain't nothing she can't do.Because every week, I go to a club, and every week, I act like I'm too drunk to stand. And every...fucking week, a nice guy like you comes over to see if I'm okay. You want to fuck me still?I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings obliteration. I will face my fear and I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past... I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. If you want love, then this is it. This is real life. It's not perfect but it's real.It reminded me how genuinely romantic I was ... how I had so much hope in things ... and now it's like I don't believe in anything that relates to love. I don't feel things for people anymore. In a way, I put all my romanticism into that one night ... and I was never able to feel all this again.I love you, Dex, so much. I just don't like you anymore. I'm sorry.It's like I was playing some kind of game, but the rules don't make any sense to me. They're being made up by all the wrong people. I mean no one makes them up. They seem to make themselves up. 
